Wedding Pictures

Got the pictures from the wedding and finally got around to posting them. The wedding was wonderful and a lot of fun. It was like a wonderful family get-to-gather. Everyone was laughing and just having a great time. It was a very relaxed wedding and exactly what I wanted.

me being silly to make the girls laugh

Our head pieces.

Harmony

Amber being silly

Look I'm getting my daughter drunk...Just kidding its just lemon water

Harmony reading as she waits for Amber to get done.

Ambers Hair

Harmonys turn to be silly

Harmonys hair

Me getting my hair finished

All done and read to go

I crocheted the ivy here made 905 of them

More of the decorations on the gazebo

The sand 

There are 5 vases, one for each of us and the main one.

the ring dog hehe.

My mom 

Dan giving the girls a ring.

Coming together as one family

closer look at the vases and I crocheted the flowers here

Knitting/crocheting at quilt show

This weekend I went to my moms house to help her with the quilt show her guild was doing. I showed up on Saturday and the show had already been going on for a day. My mom told me I need to check out the yarn that was there. At first I thought I miss understood her, but when I got there I saw on lady with a nice knitted scarf on. After helping my mom get set up I just had to go over and see the scarf. It was a beautiful multi tone purple scarf that was knitted with Starbella yarn. This lady, who had made some wonderful quilts and wrote storybooks to go with the quilt, had knitted the scarf pattern that comes with the yarn. I stated that i don’t knit but I do crochet. She then stated that she has never kitted before that weekend and had gotten 3 scarfs done. This really got me interested in this scarf. Come to find out that the ladys that were selling this yarn at the quilt show was teaching those who bought the yarn how to knit the scarf. I just had to get me some and see if I could crochet one. So here I am at this quilt show crocheting this scarf and watching several people that came into the show walk out kitting a scarf. It was a little sad that the attention was taken off the quilts a bit after all the quilts were beautiful, but it was nice seeing so many learning how to knit. I even had some ask me how to crochet the scarf as they dont knit but crochet. I was able to get 4 scarfs done in just a few hours after trying different ways to get it to curl like the knitted one. And just my luck once i realizes I’m in a hotel and probable have wi-fi I grabbed my Ipad and went onto Ravelry to see if there was a crochet pattern for the scarf and yep there was, 2 of them for this yarn A flirty sping scarf, Starbella Crochet Scarf, and Grand Picots Scarf. Needless to say I did have fun making this scarf and plan on making more and teaching my daughter how to make it.

Sorry.....

Hello everyone sorry I have not posted in a while. Things here have not been goin go. We lost in court on 8/17 so now my ex gets to see the girls unsupervised. The attorney I got from the pro-bono project was not very good at all. When my ex lied on the stand about him yelling at Amber my attorney did not show the evidence we had proving he was telling at her. So now I have to go in mediation with him and we have a court date for 2/13 for the modification of parenting time. I spent about 3 hours typing out why I feel that he should have limited supervised visits with the girls. I also put in there that he stated in court documents that he is not attempting to change the primary residence of the girls, but then he turns around and starts talking to Harmony about how she is going to like living with him and going to school by his house. I am going to be taking the girls to court and ask that the judge speak with them in chambers. I have also been keeping track of when he talks to the girls and when he wants to see them. In the original court papers he is to give me reasonable notice of when he wants to see the girls. Will over the weekend he asked if he could spend Monday with Harmony and he asked that morning. To me that is not reasonable notice. So I just didn't answer my phone when he called and didn't return the text messages. Right now he is happy that he won the battle but the war has just started. I have been doing research on everything and taking notes of what to ask who and so I'm hoping that I can handle all this without an attorney. Once the parenting stuff is over I'm going to hit him even harder by filing contempt of court on him for all the stuff he has not been doing that the courts said he has to do. I am also going to ask that I be paid in full within a month of the court date and state that if he can pay for a high-priced attorney and take trips out-of-state like to New Mexico. Go to concerts and but things there then he is more then able to pay me in full. If he does not get me paid in full by the set time then I'll ask that he serve no less then one year in jail for not only not getting me pain on time but also as a way for him to learn how to respect the dignity of the courts. After all with all of the contempts I have on him he will be lucky if he does not go to jail right then and there. I am also looking into suing his friends wife for frailer to supervise the visits between my ex and the girls and thus endangering the safety and welfare of a child. They all think that they have won but they have no clue what is coming. In court when talking about the girls I'm going to ask my ex if he has always wanted to be a part of his children's life's. If he says yes then that opens the door for me to bring up his son. The one that he had nothing to do with for about ten year and then only contacted him when it was convenient for him. He will have to explain to the courts why he never tried to have a relationship with his son even though he knew where his son was. He will also have to explain why if he is such a loving and wonderful father why did he not attend his sons funeral. It makes me wonder if his son really did die or if it was just a way to not have to contact his son any more once his route changed. Also if it is true that his son died what parent would not do all they can to attend the funeral of their oldest child. Also I am working on getting in contact with the U.S Marines and getting the public record of my exs dishonorable discharge form them and use it to establish his credibility. After all if you will lie to the federal government to get into the service what would stop you from lying in court. So its a long battle that is far from over but if I can just keep my head about me I should be able to come out on top.

OMG I feel so much better

OMG I had a good day today. Legal aid was able to come through and I now and an attorney on my side for the protection order. I was so scared that I would have to go in there alone and try to win with my ex having an attorney. Dan, Amber and I met with her today and we were there for 3 1/2 hours. She talked with Amber so that she could hear how she felt about everything and to hear what happen from Amber herself. Harmony is still shut down and is not talking about any of it. Not sure if Amber is going to talk to the judge and she does have a hard time remembering things because of her medical problems and ADD. I also feel that when Amber gets really upset she tends to "black out" and not remember what she said at this time. I just hope we have enough to get to order perm. and to have supervised visits with their dad. Amber did state that she wants the visits to be supervised with her dad. We are keeping Harmony from talking because she has not yet let herself think or talk about everything. She has said that she is the invisible child when she is with her dad. We are going to meet with her again on Thursday and before court on Friday. My mom is even going to be here. Tomorrow I meet with another attorney to get the contempt of court filled out and filed.
As for the wedding I found a Pastor that will do the ceremony that I wrote up without a problem. He is the one that did the wedding for my mom and step-dad. He was great with the girls and even asked Harmony if he could wear one of her skirts as its a renaissance themed wedding. It made she laugh and Amber give him a strange look. I told him he could wear shorts as its going to be hot that day and it is a casual wedding.
The goats are doing great. They are fat and just love to jump around on the playground Dan made for them. We had to go looking for the cow the other day because he jumped the fence to his pen. Pain in the butt cow. He was over by the office eating some of the grass.
With my crocheting I have made a baby's sweater and a dress cover in about a day. I didn't get any done today as I was getting everything ready for the attorney.

School, girls and crochet

So I have been working on a baby sweater that I got as part of my Hook and Needle Club that I'm in. I have been having a lot of fun workin on it now that I have all the decorations for the weddin done. I just hope that everything for the weddin goes off good and looks good. As far as school goes I'm doin ok gonna finish up a class on Monday then have a week off. This is goin to be good cause Amber is bein home schooled this year and we will start our classes together. She has to sit by me to get on the net cause I dont have a longer Ethernet cord. This way I can make sure she is doin her school work and not just playin around. Harmony still wants to go to her old school and be with her friends so for most of the day it will be me and Amber and then we get Harmony picked up after school. With Amber bein home schooled she will be able to get caught up in her classes and will have the chance to graduate on time. We have court again on the 17th for the protection order. I'm hopin that if the judge does not make it perm. with the girls she will for me. I'm so tired of all the crap he likes to pull and I hope I can get the judge to see past his lies and see the truth. I have some cards in my pocket and I will play them if I have to. My mom is gonna come for the hearing so it will be nice to have her there also. Dan is goin crazy having to just sit there and watch me go through this. It just kills him that he cannot do more or be there next to me in court. All I want is for the girls and I to be safe and that everything is in their best interest. As most have called me the google queen I have been livin up to that these past few weeks gettin all the info I can to win this. Will back to crochetin.

Baby Dolls

So today I was working on my Hook and Needle pattern and got to thinkin that I dont have a lil one to try the size onto. So what would any mother of girls do. Go lookin through their dolls right? No not me I started looking for a doll on the web that would work for the baby cloths I am working on. I figure if I can find one or 2 that are about the size of a newborn and one a bit older then I can just have them to make sure that the clothing comes out at the right size. So here I am lookin at baby dolls for me. hehe Also the girls are a bit old for dolls and they don't have any, yes I did check. Now if I get my own then I dont have to worry about anyone takin them back after I finish an outfit.

To cry or not to cry, That is the question.......

What do you do when all you want to do is lay in bed and cry? How do i go on knowing that the girls are not going to be happy? I feel like I have hit rock bottom and know longer have ways to get out. Dan is doing all he can to help but there seems to be no way out. My ex has his parents helping him and we just have use. I don't know what I'll do if I lose the girls. They are my world. I'm trying to be happy for them and let them think that everything is going to be ok, but I'm so worried its not. What I don't understand is why now. Why does he want them now and not when they were growing up. He didnt want his son so why them. I'm so lost right now and have no way of finding my way back. My depression is get worse and I don't know what to do. Someone please help me.